so like we have been almost everywhere.. we have done many things together... and he is just the best guy anyone can ask for... SORRY LADY'S...HE IS ALL MINE.. =0)
anyways... my trial date came and that was hard.... i had to face this guy who looked at me and told me good bye... and i was not ready for that... i could not walk thru the door without my knees buckeling... so like the judge orderd everyone to leave the court room... and so did the judge himself... and then everyone slowly came back in... while the judge told me who he was bringing in... and there he was... this evil kid who could not look me in the eyes... and had sorrow on his face... i was so scared... this only went on for like 20 minutes as i was asked questions... and so then i had to come back the next day... as i came back i was alot calmer.. cause i knew what to expect... and i was ready for anything... i felt so bad for this kid who shot me... he was all alone... dont get me wrong... he does deserve that... but no matter how wrong you have done... or what you have done in your life... NO ONE DESERVES TO BE ALONE!!!.... that is how i feel... and i forgive him for what he did to me... he had no choice at the time... and when u feel like u have power to do as you will to someone you take it... EVERYONE DOES THAT...not just with violence... but for other shit... like work and etc... ya kno!... so like my aunt was all like... ur acting like ur someone from law and order up there... lol... and i was like seriously?... and i seen some people who were just there to see what trial was goin on... people were crying... and felt so sorry for what happened... then day 3 came... and this was the sentencing day... and i was able to read what i wrote about what happened and what i wanted to tell this kid... and i dont really remember word for word... but i made alot of people cry more... i made him feel my pain...
but when we (my ex's mom and i) sat in the row behind the lawyer guy... (i cant think of the other word right now)... she was sayn to this kid that he is goin to pay big time for what he did to her son.. and he smiled so wide..like he was so proud of what he had done to him... and when he looked at me i seen that he was sorry... he even got to speek and he said that he was sorry for what he has done to me... and that just made me cry... i was shocked to hear him say that... but it made me happy to know that he was sorry... so my boyfriend has been by my side throu it all... and he has been such a great help.. my aunt is in LOVE with him... she thinks he is my soul mate... i think that too... but sometimes i think otherwise... and i am sure he does too... lol.. but what relationship is perfect?
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