current times part 4

when i was asking my uncle if i could move in with him he was like a little unsure if he should allow it or not... but he let me ... now i share a room with my cousin... and she is in HS... so like i didnt have a job... i was just collecting my SSI and SSDI... and umm i had so much spare time during the day... i was always on the computer ... cooking ... cleaning... and meeting guys being my old self in a way... but i didnt go back to drugs... yes i smoked weed... but come on... who doesnt?... lol... anyways... its not a regular thing... the last time i can say i smoked was 2 yrs ago from today... and my uncle and i went thru alot cause here i am like 25 - 26 yrs old and he is tellin me i cant sleep out at peoples houses... and i faught with him on that ... i wanted to leave... and he wanted me to leave too... but i got him to understand that i am as old as i am ... and he thought i was using his place as a hotel... and i was like umm no i aint... if i wanted to use it as a hotel all these guys would be going in the room with me and my cousin... so like whatever... this went on for like a year...





well my trial date was comin close... ya know for the shooting... so like i had to go and i was with this one kid who used to date my other cousin from a diffrent uncle... and umm i loved him cause he was HOTT and gave me attention... and i am so uncomfortable with myself now ... cause i walk with a disability from gettin shot in the head... i use braces on both legs cause i have drop foot... and i walk with a cane... (i look like a old lady)... so anyways... he gave me the time of day so i fell for it... and what girl wouldnt?... so like my trial was around the cornor... and this guy told me one day that he loved me... then the next day... he said he didnt remember sayin that to me... and i broke it off.. cause he was playn me like a fuckin fool and i let him...





so this one day my family and i was doin laundry and i was sitting outside... and this guy whom i knew from like 10 yrs ago had pulled up and started to talk to me... we exchanged numbers and things... so he left cuz i was ready to go... my aunt was like U BETTER HAVE NOT GIVEN HIM UR NUMBER...lol... i was like yes i did... she thought he was like some deraliyc cause he was wearing a hoody and drove a jeep... so like we talked after new years in 2008 and we hooked up one nite... it was our first date... we went to see a friend of mine ...and i got my christina pierced (the skin above the womans clit)..(just incase u dont know)... and i already had my nipples pierced... so like i was screaming... and that was our first date... while we went back to his house and had sex... i was thinkin in my head like ... i like him... but this is probably all he wants... so i gave it to him... and like the weekend that came up he asked me to be his girl... i said No... and then i started to fall for him more and more.. so i asked him out... he said No... he needed to ask me out... lol... so on January 13,2008 he asked me and i said YES... so we have been dating for like over a yr and a half or so.... and he is a great guy...