Somethin On My Mind

Drugs have made a very big input on my life... and others as well... because I was a drug user... i was shot in the head 2 times... and almost lost my life... it was not worth it... and i am thankful that i am still here to go on and finish my life... but some ppl are not so lucky... there has been a few deaths this year of ppl i know/knew... due to over dose... and now my moms ex is in the hospital ... his heart is not right... his liver is fucked... and is on blood thinners for the rest of his life... he also was diagnosed with emphysema... which makes it worse... not only that he had bronchitis... and i will be goin to visit him tonight... he has been in the hospital since friday last week... i hope that he makes it out ok... but u never know what can happen... and it will be hard to deal with if he does pass away... he was not a great person at times... but i can remember the good he had done for my mother and i... he took us in when we had no place to live... he made me go back to high school to finish my schooling... he tried to teach me how to respect him and others... but i was too old for him to teach me all of that... i was stuck in my own little ways... and i told him to go fuck himself more then a couple of times... but once i did get older .. i called him and cried to him one day ... i told him ... that i was sorry for ever being so mean... and i told him thank you for teaching me some things... its never too late to tell someone how u feel... and i hope that he knows that... i will re-assure him of all this when i visit him... cuz maybe this time he will listen to me... who knows... cuz i know that i was not listening to anyone b4 i got shot... maybe this time cuz he knows he is goin down... that he will listen... i pray that he will be ok...