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so after i graduated HS in Dunellen... i did alot of diffrent things... one thing i did was start to date this kid and i moved in with him and all that... i started doing "x" (the drug)... and workin at a bar... and always had money on me to do things... and well one day i went over a friends house with my boyfriend.. and i was hanging out with my friends mom in the backyard... she wanted my man and i to get her some crak.... so we did and then thats when it almost started again ..(i was 19) and umm so my bf and i took this hit and then left cause we would have wanted more... so we went home and somehow we came up with the idea to drive to Florida to see his family... so we drove there... and on the way there we stopped in South Carolina... and umm my bf's brother got pulled over in my car cause he didnt have a license but i needed him to drive... (it was too much for me to drive all the way there)... and we spent like a nice few hours tryn to get him out and thank god he knew some people... so we could get them to give us some money to get him out... that was HECTIC... and so now we got to florida (daytona) and i met my mans dad and that was cool... we went to the beach.. the water was so nice... and i tried to surf that was hard... and umm then from there we went to Tampa... and that is where we were goin.. i met his Uncle... and his son... we asked his uncle where his girl was .. he said that she was out gettin some drugs... and so i went to my bf and said ... why didnt u tell me that ur uncle did that and blah .. blah .. blah... so i was like umm well we r supposed to be on vacation do you want to do it?.. and he was like sure... so we did... let me tell you that now this is where it all began!!...



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once she came back we all met and went into his uncle bedroom and all took hits and got so fucked up ... the crack they have in Florida is like 10 times more powerful then the shit they have here in NJ... it ended up where there was no more drugs so then me and the girl went out and i was drivin her to places where she got money from people by trickin... (being a whore...haven sex for money) and umm once we got enough money to get some more drugs we got some ... this was a on going thing now... and i became her and had sex for money to get drugs.. (something i always told myself that i would never do)... i gave my jewlery to a pawn shop.. i even gave a dealer my cell phone i had just so that he can have a working phone and we could get drugs... (fucked up shit)... my bf decided one nite that we drive up to this block where we go sometimes and act like we had money for drugs and when they went to give them to me and they took the money that was not all there ... they knew that we did that and called up the block and by the time we were at the end of the block they hit my windshield with a folding metal chair on the passenger side in where i was sitting and it scared the fuck outta me... they tried to follow us but was not able to find us and we smoked the drugs and didnt think nothin of it and so ... it had to have been like a few weeks later when the girlfriend of the uncle wanted to get some from these guys one day and i pulled around to the side street hoping they didnt see me and well someone did they came to my window... and said "BITCH YOU KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU DID TO ME!" and hit me in the side of my face with a brick... luckly i did not get hurt to bad... i had a scratch cause i seen it comin so i went with the motion of the way he was going... so yea.. about that and he took my necklace that was given to me with my name on it... that was worth like a couple hundred bucks for that... so yea.. that didnt stop me from being a crack whore still... i remember callin my mom and her boyfriend and askin for money to come home and i didnt even use the money to go home.. i used it for my habbit... and then my bf got mad at me and left me at his uncles cause he thought i was hidding drugs from him (lmao)... and so i was in Florida alone with family that is not even mine... and yea... i dated this mexican kid who was into doin what i was... and he had money... but then wanted me to stop doin what i was doin and move with him and i said no.. so he left me... and i then started with this guy who seen me around... and he took me away from the streets... and i tried to become clean... my mom came to get me from there... and while she was getting me.. we got drugs for the ride home... man i tell ya ... i had a fucked up life since that day...

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on the way home ... my car was like over heating and all this shit.. cause i didnt have oil in it and man we were just fucked up... but we got home and i continued to do drugs.. and then had the guy who i left in Florida come and get me in NJ cause my moms bf wanted to fight with me... and so i went back to Florida... i was tryn again to get clean... i tried to look for work... i was learning how to water ski.. and swam with the gators in the pond behind my house... which was scary... i had little duckies as my friends... the mom tried to attack me... but didnt ... lol... and we had to move from the place where we were stayin at cause he didnt have a job no more... he was workin for like home depot and i learned how to lay down the floor stuff they use in bathrooms (on the floor) ( i cant think of the name now.. lol.. knowin me i will know it later)... and umm yea so we moved to Orlando... we lived in a Hotel for a while... i was friends with some little kids... and then got to know their mom and dad... found out that they liked to smoke crack too... yea... i smoked with them one nite and didnt do it again for quite some time... but yea... ( crack was a big part of my life for a long time).... so like that was that nite... and i think that was when i turned 21 .... so after that nite i didnt touch it again for a while... and umm we moved into some rooming house... and i was workin with the guy who owned the house.. he was a jewish guy and i was like fallin for this kid who lived in the house and worked with him... well i started to try to go to college at FMU in North Orlando... i made friends wit this girl... she was cool... and cute.. i wanted to get away from the guy i was with she wanted to hook me up wit her cousin... so i was all about it... and so time was gettin closer and closer... i left the guy i was with and stayed at a hotel an when i left my bf he didnt know i even left cause i left when he was workin or out lookin for work... and umm i remember goin to the clubs with my girl up on the BLVD in Orlando... i went to TABU alot.. that was the HOTT SPOT... i loved it!!... and we went to some club called FIRE somethin... and thats were Busta Rymes was playn at... and i got to see him up close.. that was awesome!!!... i had so much fun... and well my olf bf found me at this hotel i was at... he came after me... and some guys who live in florida (red necks) umm beat the shit out of him for tryn to take me away... and my ex was charged with attempted kidnapping... domestic violence... DWI... DUI... umm assult... tresspassing and something else... i had marks all over my body... so now i needed a new place to go... and i could not go home i had no money and my family said no cause i fucked em once already they were not goin to do it again... so i understood... there was this guy from my college... he was living in some ladys house and let me stay with him and was tryn to find a friend of his whom i can stay with for a while... so he found someone... and let me tell you... i fell so deep in love with this guy... he was purto rican.. and his family is from NJ... he was trying to become a singer... and man i was in love so fast with him... (i will keep sayn that) ... his family loved me... and told him he needs to keep me... but he knew i needed to go home and take care of some things for myself... so he blew it off... i was supposed to go to his recording studio cause he heard me sing and he loved it... but it didnt last =(