life as we know it

life is so complicated at times.. it seems like things go well for you ... then hit you right in the behind.. (lol) ..when u want to do right in your life... something brings u down... i feel bad for my mom... she is goin thru rough times as of lately... and i cant help her with money... but i am there for her when she needs to talk.... but she dont talk to me much... cuz i think she dont want me to worry... i will always worry about her.. NO MATTER WHAT!!... just because she had done some fucked up things in her life it does not mean that she should feel like noone is there for her.. and i may get upset with some choices she makes.. and she knows that... cuz she knows what the right thing to do is... but she needs to lay in her bed until she can get back up on her own 2 feet... ya kno... like i am glad my uncle let me stay with him ... its helping me a great deal... but i still dont save anything... cuz i spend money like its HOTT... lol... i cant help it either... like my life was always around getting high... and i am not about to spend money on drugs... i like to spend money on FOOD.. CLOTHES...ETC...i mean if u had a habbit that u couldnt afford b4.. then u had a second chance in life... what would you do with it???... i choose living life... SPENDING MY OWN MONEY WHEN I WANT TO.... lol... i work for it... i have a full time job... 40hrs a week... 8-5 m-f... and i am starting school in Ocotober... full time... for psychology... so i think i am tryn to make a better life for myself... but everytime somethin goes right... somethin goes wrong.. y is that??... can someone answer that for me???... does life need to be like that??... well anyrate... i need to stop bloggin... i have a FARM to attend too... LOL..