Just Because Its Been So Long...

I have to begin by sayn i had a whole fukin this written down... and i clicked on a stupid part of this page and lost all of what i wrote!.. UGH!!... FML!!!... anyways... its been a while since i last wrote somethin... so i thought about it and i thought i should write somethin to brush you all up on what has been goin on... i started college as you know in September last year... i had 4 classes thus far and i been breezin thru them almost like its nothin... so ENC-101 i had a B... SOS-101 *Living In The Information Age* i had a A... and ENC-102... the mentor can suck my non-exsistant DICK!... i am not sure but i think i got a D... and PSY-101 i have a B+... my enc-102 was low because of a research paper i did... and i did not choose the right subject ... but the mentor lead me to believe that everything was cool until i wrote my final paper and got a 35 which was counted as 50% of the grade... whatever... too much to talk about with that one... dont wanna get into it... my psyc class... i cheated and NO -ONE knew... lol... but now i feel guilty... cuz i dont know anything about that class... i am now in Intro to Anthropology and Self Assestment Career Explaination course... i am sure i can get thru ANT-101 with no problems... but this other class sucks balls!!!... i wish i had a pair for this class to suck on... boy oh boy... its like why do they make you take this asshole courses??!... and they require you to do soo fuckin much for em too... i just started these two classes the 1st of april... and they will be over on 6/24 which is fine with me... then i take 2 mths off for summer and start again in september... but now i need to be searching for ways to go to school for free... this sucks that i applied for Sallie Mae... and Fin Aid is payin like 1200... whatever!... i should be able to go to school for free!!... i was shot in the fuckin head 2 times and survived!... there has to be a grant for that... or somethin for a 27 (soon to be 28 on the 29th of April) young woman with a disability... and I STILL WORK AT THIS ASSHOLE FUCKIN JOB THAT I HATE.. I AM GETTIN SO SICK AND TIRED OF!...

OH... GOOD NEWS!!!... I DID BUY A CAR FOR THE 2 ND TIME IN MY LIFE... BUT 1ST TIME I INSURED IT UNDER MY NAME... i have to get hand controls which will be on there shortly... =)

i am still with Matt... the love of my life... 2 yrs... 3 mths... yay!!... i am 4 yrs and 1 mth sober!!!... and goin to college... HOW IS THIS ALL POSSIBLE FOR ME??!... LOL... i am currently seeing a therapist for my many thoughts and anxiety... she is pretty cool... she mite read this blog so i have to make her feel good... lol... <3 u!...

umm yea... so like i been feelin down and out a lot of stress... its too much for me to handle... i moved in with matt... so i am gettin used to being with a guy who is actually worth keeping... i guess its too much to handle... but I DO IT!... =)

good day for now... UNTIL NEXT TIME...